Rusty as Fuck.

I’m rusty as fuck

and already a day behind. 

Also, I found out I have old lady elbows-

They’d been hiding in areas I didn’t know I was supposed to be searching

for rot and wear. 

Also, my hips have widened. 

And I throw advice towards anyone walking slow enough past me. 

I tell them you’re getting rusty. You better get on with it. 

And I spend too much time in the backyard looking too closely at the Hackberrys and the Bloodgood Japanese maple that came with the house. They have started budding before they should have. I tell them, you better stop this shit now. 

It’s not even spring yet, and the weather dips will cut your legs from beneath you.  

The Bloodgood came with the house. It was the sign I was looking for. 

Sold. I said to our realtor who was tired of looking for cracks in foundations.

But now it's blooming before its time, and I am second guessing everything.

(Freewrite -- 20 min.-- April 2nd, 2024)